Haven’t written anything on here in FOREVER so I thought since I have some time and patience I’d write a bit about what’s been going on lately. So I’ve been really busy going to school to become a certified preschool teacher all the while working as a teacher aid at an awesome Christian preschool! The school’s motto is “Hands of blessing, arms of love, and words of life.” Awesome right!?
I started working with the 3-4 year olds class and immediately fell in love with the job. After awhile they transferred me to the nursery where they needed more help. At first I was totally sad because I have a lot of experience working with older kids and almost no experience with babies. We stay indoors all day and it took me awhile to get use to babies and understanding their biological schedule but now I absolutely LOVE it. I’m in love with every single baby there and I’m literally never upset about going to work and I always volunteer to do overtime. These babies have been such an unspeakable blessing in my life. They have shown me the wonder of God’s love through the love of these babies-in every smile, giggle, twinkle of their eyes, just everything. They fill my heart each and every day and I’m so grateful to these little ones. I still help with the older kids every once in awhile and its always a blast! I can’t wait until the day I can have my very own class of kiddos.
Another new-ish thing is that I left my home church after starting it up and serving tirelessly in worship and youth ministry. It was a very difficult decision to make and I made it for personal reasons but with God’s strength I was able to do it. God did a lot of rejuvenating and healing in me at my new church but after awhile, I started growing a bit “homesick” as I found it difficult to get to know people and get involved. This new church is very different from any church I’ve served in and I don’t mean to bash AT ALL but the leaders and a lot of the people attending (including the young adults) so far have been very exclusive, closed off and very impersonal. It sucked big time. But after a year I’ve finally mustered the courage (thanks to God) to get over feeling rejected or not part of “the group” and decided to try my hardest to find a way to get involved and just show love and welcome any other new people that were experiencing what I experienced. Basically, my goal is to be an example and hopefully encourage the people already connected to open up and branch out to others. So right now I’m serving in the kid’s ministry teaching Wednesday nights and soon I will also be leading the kid’s worship which I am so excited about! Nothing like worshipping with a bunch of joy filled kiddos who still haven’t entered into the “too cool” stage haha. I’m also attending the high school service in order to get to know the youth and get involved in their worship team as well. But really, who knows what God has planned. This place may never be my new home church but I will serve and try my hardest while I’m there until God says its time to go.
«Maybe it isn’t about having all the answers. When
things get hard, maybe we aren’t being patronized–
maybe sometimes we just need to be told to remember
to slow down. So step in the dew of the morning grass
with bare feet and remember what it’s like to feel something.
Sip on your coffee with a little too much sugar, and forgive
yourself. Be late to a meeting without speeding, and
forgive yourself. Maybe we’re twenty something and our
hearts falter when you ask us about where we’re going. Maybe
we’re twenty something and our hands shake when you ask
us about who we’re loving. Maybe none of ‘what matters,’
matters. The tests we failed and the boys and girls that never
liked us back, the jobs we won’t get and the boys and girls who
will never like us back; the bad drivers, the bullies, the broken
faucets and pens with fading ink, the gendered magazines and
the bank account decorated with $24.56. What about us?
What about new freckles and shy smiles? Cats stretching off beds
an fresh rain in April? When did we forget to love everything?
When did we forget to love ourselves? Because just maybe it’s
about this. Just maybe, it’s about now. So what about now?»
«It’s a very life-giving experience every night: to be in a room full of strangers singing the same songs, and suddenly realize that we’re not that different. You have this commonality with people you’ve never met.»
«I think if I’ve learned anything about friendship, it’s to hang in, stay connected, fight for them, and let them fight for you. Don’t walk away, don’t be distracted, don’t be too busy or tired, don’t take them for granted. Friends are part of the glue that holds life and faith together. Powerful stuff.»
«God loves the weak. He oftentimes saves and uses the weak to shame the strong. See, God loves weakness. In our culture, we hate it. That’s a huge problem. Do you understand? It’s a huge problem for us to despise weakness like we do. We don’t want to be seen as weak. No, brother, be seen as weak. God’s power flows most vividly and most powerfully through the weak vessels.»